Well I called it. I went to go weigh in and I was up from last week, but down from the start of the Awesome By August Challenge.
Last weight 293.4
Current weight 294.6
Gain of 1.2 pounds this week
Total Loss: 19.2
By the numbers, I am back to the weight I was in February. That has me really pissed off. I am disappointed in myself. Basically the last 5 months have been wasted, weight wise. I am learning more about myself and this journey so I do not feel that the last 5 months have been a complete waste of time, but I am just more disappointed that I didn't respect myself enough to keep the weight off or continue losing.
As if the Weight Watcher God's were speaking at me, the meeting topic was about identifying plateaus. I know I haven't hit a plateau, I just lost my focus (maybe I should post signs or something; check local lost and founds), but we talked about what we could do to focus on continuing to stay positive despite seeing smaller losses at the scales or plateaus. Although I've been gaining I'm still recognizing that I am making positive changes within me. Maybe I just have a hard time with all the changes, I need to slow down and focus on the good healthy habits I've already formed.
So I just might be going back to school, Weight Watchers 101. I think my July goal of tracking my food for a week straight will help me achieve this. I love the Weight Watchers iPhone app, another tool that I need to use more.
I'm looking forward to next week's topic of pushing past plateaus and how to stay focused on the long term goals, using short term goals (so that you don't loose focus). I'm going to try to focus on 5 pounds at a time, and just keep plugging away until I reach all of my goals.