Weighing In...

So things are progressing normally. Throughout my entire pregnancy I have been very cognoscente of my weight. It is of concern to me being overweight to begin with. The day I found out I was pregnant I stepped on my scale at home and weighed in at 329. I had my monthly OB appointment on Thursday, before going in, I weighted in at 335.

I weighed in at the office at 331. I asked my doctor how much weight have I gained since starting, and she said, actually I've lost weight. According to their files, I am down 4 pounds. And according to my home scale I've gained 6 pounds.

Normally I would take this as a win, but I know that scales are different and can fluctuate. So I am going to keep on weighing in on my home scale and use that as my record. Better to be safe. I am not dieting, in fact, quite the opposite, I eat what I want, when I want and haven't deprived my body of anything. (well aside from booze!)

Other than that, baby is growing normally. We also had an ultrasound on Tuesday as well. That tech and doctor said everything looked normal. I guess my pregnancy is going "normal". And I am ok with that.

My next big hurdle to pass will be my glucose test. But I still have a few more weeks until that.

Who needs sleep?

My sleep patterns have been all wacky. I am finding myself in bed between 8-10pm. Last night, I was home from work at 6:30, in bed by 8:30pm. In fact Ben texted me at 9:15pm and I barely woke up to acknowledge his text! 

In the morning, I typically have been getting up at 4:30 and then 6am. I can usually go back to bed in between, but I am usually up at 7:30 and that's it for the day. Unless I went to bed really late the night before.On days that I work, I am up at 5:40am.

This isn't normal for me, as I am used to going to bed between 10-midnight, sleeping through the night and waking up between 7-8:30am.

Is this a sign of me getting old?

So far as the weight thing goes, I am still struggling. I am eating when I am hungry, but I find at times I am craving great choices and at other times not so great choices (pizza...last night). I need to get better about maintaining a food journal so I can track my cravings and better prepare for them.

My weight right now, 329.... there I said it. With that being said, I am now heavier than my husband. That is not a great feeling for me. Ben is doing a weight loss competition and he's doing so great, I am so supportive of his efforts and I give him a lot of credit for what he's been doing.

I saw myself in a mirror while at the salon with Kristen on Friday, and I didn't like the blob that was sitting in the chair staring back at me in the reflection. I want better for my life, and my future. I know the path is long and hard and we are going to struggle. I am very lucky and fortunate to have such a great group of people both on and off line who are so supportive of my efforts!

And now that it's out there I can move on. By moving on, I mean tonight after work, I will be at the gym.